ribs and soul searching

Nearly 4 months later...apparently I'm not too good at this updating everyone on my life thing.In my head I'm running an amazing blog but for some reason the computer screen usually remains blank. My mind sure spins enough to keep filling these pages and I know friends and family are happily surprised every time I finally put a few comforting words to the paper...and sadly enough instead of starting one of many promised emails I'm writing this...

In my 'about me' section I've got a single sentence.."I'm a restless soul, but not lost". Man was I wrong, I'm lost and I've been for quite some time.
I had proper ribs for the first time yesterday and even though I did like the taste it was a rather disturbing experience as it made us think of the cannibal in London years back.... the wannabe vegetarian in my was disgusted in every way possible. I woke up in the middle of the night sweating..I'm not sure if it was the ribs, but this morning I woke up feeling better than I have in months. Maybe I have finally excepted that yes I don't know what to do, what choice to make, can't tell north from south..I feel calmer. Nothing is solved,but its coming to me..:) So I'm staying put on my half way to 50 bum until things make sense again.

It's not all good, but the good always makes up for the bad. Good wins, always. If you don't believe that whats the point of anything really.

The Christmas Crashers..

What do you do when your own family is on the other side of the world at Christmas..
..you pretend you're a part of someone elses family..also called Christmas crashing.
Both Christmas day and Boxing day(can someone please tell me why we call it boxing day?? No one seems to know..) were spent at a friend of a friend and family of a friend..free food(lots!), free drinks, and good company.. even a bit of karaoke in Chinese..what more can you ask for ;)

However I do want my next Christmas to be home with my own family and friends..
Jeg savner dere!

I'm off to the Beach

Itchy fingers and random thoughts..

First of all..Merry Christmas!! I looked at the date of my last blog entry ..September..it's now Christmas Day and I'm finally sitting down with my laptop and a surf movie (makes me relax) trying to type a few words..I had all these thoughts that sounded great and very clever in my head earlier today...I said to myself that today is the day when I get back online.

These last few months have been different..a new experience with all the good and bad that comes with that. I'm living and learning ;)
I came here because Oslo was making me restless. I thought Sydney would give me peace in mind at least for a little while. Settling in took me longer that I expected..I still have days where I feel like a jet lagged soul.
Most of the time I'm fine and happy, with both feet on the sand, relaxed. Other days I'm restless again..what next? Something is staring me in the face but I cant make out what it is.

I'm learning not to worry so much..because like a wise person keeps telling me, "it's going to give you wrinkles.." and who wants that..

2010 is just a few days away:

- save money
- surf
- plan a trip
- keep writing
- keep dancing
- worry less
- Byron Bay Blues fest(yaaaay :) !!!)

" Memory is the diary we carry inside of us, it's the way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are and the things you never want to loose...You might not remember days..But you can always remember the moments.."

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I've been a busy little lady the last few weeks..3 to be exact.
Too busy living it to be spending any time writing about it.
So to keep it short:

- First few hours in Sydney - pub crawl (next day = hang over AND jet lagged..(yeah, not the best)
- First job in Kings Cross - not so much..don't samba if it doesn't make you smile
- Few days later new job - loving it! :) Now we're talking!
- Being homeless for 3 weeks..everyone should try this at least once..man have I learned to appreciate having your own bed..beats a couch any day I'll tell you that. Thank God for that couch though (God being Knut, Tam, Espen and Marita)
- This weekend - moving to Bondi Beach...yaay :)

- Sydney ..gotta love it <3

People watching..

I'm finally on my way..the fact that I'm leaving didn't actually hit me until yesterday evening..saying goodbye to the people I will miss the most. Even packing my bags didn't affect me the way it should..everyone wondering how I could be so calm about it all. well, it finally got to me..that I'm leaving all my friends and family, everything I've know for the last 21 years (3 before that was oz). It's a bit scary and I must admit I felt a little sad and over whelmed. Knowing I'm doing the right thing helps though.
This morning I was in too much of a hurry to really think about stuff, which is a good thing I guess.
Now I'm sitting in the middle of circus Heathrow, and I'm feeling ok :) I already miss everyone and I wish I could take them with me, but I'm good. I have no idea what's waiting for me in Sydney..tiny bit scary, but mostly exciting.

It feels like yesterday I was here last, sitting in pretty much the same spot, blogging and people watching..it's been over a year and a half..so much has happened over the past year, still I have no idea where the days went.

So long my Oslo people, I'll be missing you :)

Lots of love

Last day in Norway

I hate goodbyes...not good at it (who is). hate it.

short of days

It's 6 days left and I've officially started packing..again I own more stuff that I thought. 6-7 boxes..that might not sound like a lot to some people, but this is the girl who can't even buy a plant without feeling stressed...as long as I have all my old photo albums, yearbooks and other fun stuff I'm good...everything else is replaceable.

My problem is and always has been this...I think I have plenty of time to organise and do everything I have to..say goodbye, make everyone happy, pack my bags and get on the plane without any stress.....never happens!! And I never learn...I've been counting days and people I'm supposed to meet..and stuff I have to organise before I leave...it doesn't ad up..I'm short of days..I want to leave happy with everyone else being happy too...is it doable?