True to myself

Yet another good weekend has passed...Anna visited from Bergen, she makes the world beautiful :) Yet another Sunday stuffing myself with anything eatable..and being happy doing nothing.

Well here goes..before new years I will have done the following:

- got a job in Sydney (quite essential...asap)

- got a place to live (also quite essential...also asap)

- Signed up (and completed) a Salsa/Latin course

- Started painting again

- Read a whole bunch of books (must make books-to-read-list)

- Saved a bit of money ( I could say a lot, but let's be realistic)

- Laughed a lot

- Cried some

- Planned my next travel adventure (half the fun is planning)

....to be continued..

"day in day out I've asked many questions I say

only to find the truth it never changes I say

if you don't deal with it it keeps killing you a little by little I say

call me selfish if you will my life I alone can live I say I say I"

One Love

How does one feel slightly hung over after having only 4 beers the night before..?? Totally uncalled for..

The concert was great (although a tribute to Bob Marley should contain more than 4 of his songs..) and I so longed for a beach and a few hammocks..but a happy concert :)

I've been thinking about making this list of things to do this year..I will do it tomorrow..I will also be writing my assignment tomorrow...definitely tomorrow. Please don't let me be too hung over..

all I need ...

I don't need your inhibitions

Cos all i need is to be free.

And i don't like no-one to tell me,

where i'm going to because i can see....

You know that feeling when you get so upset and angry that you start to shiver and you get this feeling in you lower stomach... the feeling is indescribable, it's not painful but it's definitely not pleasant either..I got that today..a couple of times actually. And the worst thing is when you know you shouldn't be upset, that it's not worth it...so you work hard not to act on your feelings and you start manipulating your brain to calm down, to stop that feeling in your gut..and all along you know that the feeling has nothing to do with your brain..

It's one of those days when you know that anything can get to you, and you try so hard to push that feeling of vulnerability away, telling yourself that you have no reason at all not to be happy, which of course is even more annoying...so instead of calming down you start looking for reasons to feel how you feel...and yeah, anyone who looks hard enough will find that reason..it might not start out as a good reason, but it will end up being the root of all evil..(no,I'm not premenstrual...)

Soo...what to do...well, I put on TBG (yup, still going strong)..started writing..and about two minutes ago the sun came out..(it's been raining all day)..in a few hours I'm going to see Ky-Mani Marley & band, a tribute concert for Bob Marley..and I think I might feel a smile touching the surface..

Happy.com

This weekend was a good one, 17th of May was both relaxing and fun..the photo you see is what Karl Johan(main street Oslo) looked like around 11-12ish on Sunday..(sorry, not my photo, I wasn't there) I had a nice brunch at my aunties place :) Later that day I went to a party, had too much champagne, forgot to eat, went to a concert, realised I was way too drunk, went home, fell a sleep on the couch (apparently well hidden, my friends couldn't find me), woke up at 7am still drunk and went to bed...happy :) (well I might not have felt truly happy waking up at 7am, drunk, still in my clothes and makeup..but the happy feeling returned later that day...hm, come to think of it, maybe not so much since I felt more and more hungover as the day progressed...)



The point I'm trying to make, besides having a good Norway day, is that I'm feeling good these days. After buying a plane ticket I can't afford, realising I'm moving half way across the world and don't have a job or a place to live ..this is so what I'm supposed to do! Call me naive, a dreamer and what not..(and if you do..you're probably right)but until someone or something proves me wrong..I'm going with this new found feeling of being content..


I'm kind of loving it


Oh and by the way, if you only listen to one song today(silly you), let it be this one http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FIJwfzOBSS8

Cause I got music....

"Hey girl i love you,

Dancing 'round like that will drive me crazy.

But why would i want you,

When it's plain you're not ever wanting me?

Well my whole life all i had was this guitar.

Never gonna be lonely when all ihave is music in my heart.

Never gonna wanna be something i am not.

As i get older i'm a be happy with what i got.

'Cause i got music,

and it makes me feel alright.

Got this here music,

and it helps me ease my mind up.

'Cause i got music,

and it takes away the pain.

Got this here music,

and i got it every, every, every day.

Hey my friend's like that,

He drives all those little girls crazy.

Say did you see us,In the background of the crowd on the TV?

On a summer's day we go andcatch some morning waves.

Hanging out with my friends andthe vibe can only be ok.

Just like I don't remember rainydays when i was small,

You know i won't rememberhatred or nothing at all.

'Cause i got music,

and it makes me feel alright.

Got this here music,and it helps me ease my mind up.

'Cause i got music,

and it takes away the pain.

Got this here music,

and i got it every, every, every day.

No tempremental alibis,

and I'm not wasting all my time.

And I am looking for the truth in this.

And i don't know just what I'llget, just what ill get.

coz i got this here music

'Cause i got music,

and it makes me feel alright.

Got this here music,

and it helps me ease my mind up.

'Cause i got music,

and it takes away the pain.

Got this here music,

and i got it every, every, every day."

Oh and by the way...I put together a budget today..to see how much money I should have but don't...and I got this gorgeous new dress (for the record I got that before the budget part...so it doesn't really count...AND it's 17Th of May on Sunday..for those of you going "sooo?"..google it)

Oh and by the way number 2...listen to "Numb"...I'm having a The Beautiful Girls/Mat McHugh phase..and I plan on it being a long one. So if you're not into them...well, what can I say...you're missing out man..

It's not gambling, we call it living..

Today has been good...a good Monday! :) By the way, who gave Mondays such a bad name...? Lot's of good stuff happen on Mondays, we just tend to forget that and only remember the Sundays.

Anyways, today was the stop -waiting and whishing - start - doing - day. I received an e-mail saying that I didn't get the job I was hoping for in Sydney. I saw that one coming, so no biggie..so what did I do..I went home and booket a plane ticket...so for all those who didn't believe that I was actually leaving..Ha! August 12 is the big day...still no place to live and no job, but it's all good, I'm working on that. I'll be a regular at Gumtree and SEEK in no time...:P

Songs to listen to on a Monday:

The Beautiful girls: Surf Session-Periscopes

The Beautiful girls: Dela

The Shins: New Slang

Vampire Weekend: Cape Cod Kwassa Kwassa

G.Love & Special Sauce: Love

Haley Sales: Keep Drivin'

Ziggy Marley: Dragonfly

Damien Rice: Canonball

Banana pancakes

Well I went to bed reasonably early for a Saturday night, thinking my headache would be gone in the morning...I woke up to the sound of rain on my window, which on a Sunday morning is not such a bad thing :) In other words me and my aching head could snuggle up in bed for a few more hours. I've never been good at sleeping in, but I'm getting better at just staying in bed and not worrying about getting up just yet...I have this thing about wasting the day, and when I stay in bed I feel like I do..but lets face it, when I get up all I'll be doing is have breakfast, read online newspapers, surfing facebook (highly important when you stayed in the previous night, you might catch the juicy photos and drunken status updates before they are removed)watch telly and think about the assignment I should be writing..and how is that more important than staying in bed an listening to Sunday morning rain? (the assignment part might be, but there's always tomorrow..)

A lazy day in bed with the rain poring down...missing person: Jack Johnson

Well can't you see that it's just raining

there ain't no need to go outside...

But Baby, You hardly even notice

when I try to show you

this song is meant to keep ya

from doing what you're supposed to

like waking up too early

Maybe we can sleep in

I'll make you banana pancakes

pretend like it's the weekend now

For all those who believe Jack is the backpacker- going- to -oz- must-listen- to- surfing- singer- songwriter- cliche....maybe so, but in my opinion he's only sharing that backpacker throne with Bob Marley (I'm sure some of you might disagree with that, if so let me know), and that's not bad company..

Point being, Mr. Johnson (and Marley for that matter) makes my headache not seem so bad, so I'm sticking with them.

Happy Sunday :)

hm....

I'm not liking the layout...I guess practice makes perfect..or at least improved ;)

There's a first time for everything

One of those is the first blog post...and man that's a frikkin' tough first one..It's been about a week since I created this blog and so far I've had 7 or so people viewing my profile, and still no posts...yeah guys, I know the purpose of a blog..I'm supposed to write actual words for people to read...

So pretty much every day for the past week (well lets be honest, I started thinking about it ages ago, but I don't want to come across as the no-word-blog-freak) I've been thinking of what to write for my first blog post...definitely something funny, but serious...easygoing, but thought through...girly, but not too sweet...silly, but still intelligent...now how on earth does one do that when your name is not Carrie F***** Bradshaw ???
Soo....after endless days and sleepless nights (not really) I decided on not trying...what it all comes down to is that this is my blog, my thoughts, my life...if you find it interesting that's great...if you don't..well, you've probably got more important things going on in your life than reading my blog...good for you! If you look at things from the right perspective it's all good ;)

The main reason for starting this blog is that I've made a pretty important decision... in about two months I'm packing my bags, leaving my life in Oslo, getting on a plane and moving to Sydney...just me..So far I don't have any money, I don't have a place to live and I don't have a job....It's starting to freak me out, but I'm still loving it! Loving not knowing...not knowing whether I'm about to put myself in deep shit or if this is the best thing I could ever do..and you know what, it might be both.